went to elyu but it seems like i didn’t

grabeng attention span to, i cant even finish a movie without looking at my phone

i cant fucking stop thinking about the things i want to buyyyyyyyyyyy

why do i have to be so materialistic

work anxiety sucks

ang tagal mag open ng wildflour baguio mygaaaaaad

part of me wants to go back to church and cry it all to worship songs but a much larger part of me doesn’t want to be with probably the most judgmental group of people.

but we don’t talk about that here.

thinking of getting my nails done after an 8-month break because of psoriasis flare ups but ive gotten comfortable with not having them done so now i dont know what to do

i finally own more house clothes and pjs than outside clothes.

i remember moving out of my mom’s toxic house with just 1 luggage and an Ikea bag 4 years ago. it felt like a leap of faith, no savings and new job, just sheer will to get out of what felt like a hellhole. from repeating pjs twice to not having to worry about when my laundry will be delivered because i have more than enough to wear for the week.

thank God for a work that pays well, a home without an angry lady, and a closet that’s proof of a life lived (not a proof of escape).

i’ll be okay

im addicted to my phone and it’s making me big saddddddd. having “movement” weekends actually help but weekdays make everything worse. i consume so much media and i can physically feel my brain shrinking. hayyyy, it’s just disappointing kasi i consider this media consumption as my break from work stress but does it really relax me?? no sir it does not. it’s just distracting me. honestly, this addiction will be the death of me. i just might resort to smoking– something i never caught on before but it now seems like a cooler fixation than this constant media consumption.